Oh boy...

Haha so a lots happen since last time I wrote... We're on a month and two weeks now... WOW time is going by fast. We've been having some issuings with the appt were we've been living and now I've looked every where but cant find anything I like, nor can afford... So on base we go... Not happy about it to much bc we're stuck in scary mesa.... Its nice housing but, Not the people in it... They have a bad rep for MP's always being there, and always getting into trouble, and we cant have pets, and I have to pay someones to help me move due to Im alone lol... But Im just going to keep to myself, and Im trying not to show that Im stressed in front of gabe... He finally called last night!!! and I tryed to play it off as Yeah Im not stressed I have everything under control... and I just talked about his birthday present... lol.. but he tricked me into telling him what it was, and well its kinda a good thing he told me before I went to send it out today lol... he said before he would have liked it, but now that hes night crew, and back on the fob that he doesnt have time any more... so I said I'll hang on to it for him... So yeah.... School is all set up now, and paid for so thank god lol, but by next term I should have everything done, and I'll have my AA as an MAP YAY!!! But other then that, I breath and take slow breaths and I wont freak out lol... Im trying to hang in there but man is it hard.... I just miss him, and wish he was home to help me through all this... but only little over 100 days left! YAY.... but ttfn!

The sadess song I've ever heard...

Oh my dear... this is the sadess song in the world... I busted out crying and had to pull over when I heard this song on the radio for the first time... I've always love 'come home soon" by shedaisy I would sing it so loud... lol but now every time I hear it, its not the same... because now the person who I love the most is gone being a hero, and play super marine in a dangerous place... and all I can think about it, not to look at the news, and keep my self busy and keep trying to push on... but I just have those days still and oh dear.... but the sadess song is carrie underwoods song just a dream... I always thought hes coming home, so only such in such days until then.... then this song changed the entire way I looked at him leaving... I finally thought what if he never comes home... I wouldnt be able to live at home with out knowing what could have been... no kids, no home, nothing... I dont want to dye alone... I couldnt live life with out my best friend... gosh but I know he will come home and safly and alive it just hit me like a ton of bricks bc I never thought of the what if until now... but in case you havent heard these two amazing, very powerful songs their posted below...

Days 29th-34th!!!

OMG today has been a good day so far!!! I made friends with the neighboors down stairs! and Im a baby sitter for them on weekends if needed! Her name is mindy! and she said her hubby is stupid and not to listen to him lol, did you know hes a gunny! oh dear lol... and she hooked me up with some classes on base! so I dont have to go through mira coasta! but I am going to stick with them bc Im minoring in music teaching for elementary and Im doing some classes this summer with that! but the school on base that the JEC does MA classes and she said she will help me reup on my MA in 8 weeks with 2 in class classes and the rest is online! and she said if I want to do more classes during the day then is expected then I can prob get done in 5 weeks! so I will have my old ma job back and be working on BASE!!! YAY!!! Im happy to finally be getting some good news and have things get back on track!!! and if this can all work out, then I can keep my job with hailey!!! things are falling back into place again with school! that makes me super happy!!! oh and the dentist fixed my tooth! so i look normal again lol... bc it broke last night... gggrrrr.... lol but luckly the dentist got me in at 11 so everything is fine now... oh boy I really hope things work out! and get to where they need to be bc I need a break from everything bad happening... ame left me so now, Im all alone... no friends here any more... I just need to get something more going but not to much lol... I think I might get back into CAP again... I just need something more... But tomorrow I have my Ice skating practice and with my coach! so Im super excited for that! and My new running shoes this week! Im hoping I get them today! I really cant wait to try them! I got the new rebook easy tone! so one more step closer to my goal of getting in shape!!! so much going on! wish me luck lol!!!